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Sat, Aug. 30th, 2014, 12:09 am
Woah

Haven't posted here in ages, lol. Well well well.. Working 2 jobs now. Driving again! woohoo got myself a 2010 Chevy Malibu. Working at the screen printing shop since March 17th and been working at Howie's again driving. I'm almost 15 months off the booze, life has been great! It's ups and downs as always, but that's life isn't it? Having a good time though. Still single as a motherfucker, lol. That seems to be the ongoing trend in my life. No complaints though, really. Staying focused and doing what I do. Makes good, good sense.

Wed, Sep. 19th, 2012, 01:53 am

Well! September the 19th, here we are. What the hell as been going on with me? I have been living a pretty fucking happy life. Working a bunch now, still not as much as I would prefer, but working nonetheless. I'm getting about 30 hours on a good week. One dude is about to quit, so I'm going to bring it up to Darin to throw me his hours. The job is good though, everyone is cool, everyone gets along.

I've had a good summer, seen a lot of people I hadn't seen in ages, threw back some brews and just kicked ass basically. Me and Kelly are going to see Down on Sunday, which is going to fucking rule, they are my favorite band and it's NFL Sunday, YEAAAAH BUDDY!.

I do have to write in this damn thing more often.

Sun, Jul. 29th, 2012, 03:33 pm

Things are on the up and up. I found a job working at Hungry Howies in Berkley on 12 mile, I've been having a good month of July, I'm taking it easy on the drinking, few beers here and there, shit like that. It's been cool though, It's been a tough year but things are finally looking up, which rules. I'm a pretty happy camper these days.

Mon, Jul. 2nd, 2012, 09:22 pm

My birthday sucked.

Was boring, besides going out to eat with my mom, it sucked.

Was supposed to hang out with Bobby, he was nowhere to be found.

No one else wanted to hang out, fucking lame.

Mon, Jun. 25th, 2012, 04:15 am
Flying

Time is flying. I swear, lately the time is just flying by so fast. I'm literally not doing shit on a day to day basis and it's flying. Hell, it seems like an hour ago it was 11 o clock at night and that I was entertaining the thought of going to bed. Shit's tripped out, lol.

Well, like I said, I haven't been doing shit. Supposed to be nice as hell outside for the foreseeable future, which kicks ass.

Well lets see, I slipped up with the alcohol last weekend, I'm past that now though, went through all the side-effect motions, lol. I'm kind of glad I slipped up though, because when I stopped drinking I told myself that I'm going to quit smoking cigarettes as well. So far, I'm a week into not smoking or drinking, I think that's pretty damn good and I'm happy about it.

Problem is, even sober, I'm still a lazy mother fucker lol. I don't know what the hell it is, I can't seem to get my ass up for nothing, it's like.. I want to and trust me, I have the energy but something just holds me back, it's almost like one of those "what the hell is the point" type of somethings. I should be taking this time and kicking some ass with it! I can't just lay around feeling sorry for the past, I know I always say I can't live in the past but I do think about it for the most part. Not even just bad things that might have happened in the time but more or less, the fuck-it everyone had about them. The fun times I had with friends and acquaintances.

But those days were those days, and as much as I wish I could get them back, they aren't coming back. I guess another part is, I finally got my head straight so I'm thinking about making up for lost time. I guess I'm kind of bummed out that most pretty much everyone moved on with their lives. They have kids and marriages now. Which is great, I'm happy for them without a doubt. But then I look back like holy shit what the fuck did I waste all my time for? I'm 26 in 1 week and I don't have a damn thing to show for it.

BUT, fortunately, I'm a bright enough guy to figure the shit out.. and in usual Nick fashion, I'll be better later then never.

Yup, birthday coming up in a week, I don't know if I'll end up doing anything. Would be cool if anyone were to stop by or something but I'm honestly not holding my breath. Which is fine, I can't expect things. I looked at the weather though, and it says it's going to be 80 something and sun so that's good enough right there for me.

The following weekend I'm going out to Redbud with my uncle Paul, that'll be fun, I went a couple years ago and had a hell of a good time. Although I don't remember much of the last time, I was drinking the whole time haha, and at night, we were camped next to these cool people who liked to party, I wandered over there and they had some trees to blaze so that was pretty cool.

Still a lonely bastard though, ah well, there's worse things in life.

Im gonna go try for this sleep.

Sat, Jun. 23rd, 2012, 01:53 am

I wish there were people to smoke with :o

Thu, Jun. 21st, 2012, 12:03 am

Well, I can't drink alcohol and complete sobriety fuckin' sucks... so I'm just going to stick to smokin' dope. Doesn't burn me out, doesn't hang me over. Problem solved.

Wed, Jun. 20th, 2012, 03:26 am

Glad my body is improving, and at least it's been like literally 100 degrees outside so I haven't been missing anything. Taking this opportunity to just start over and kick some ass again.

But it being about 3:30 in the morning, it's pretty awesome that there is a Breaking Bad marathon on AMC. I'm gettin' back to it.

Tue, Jun. 19th, 2012, 11:30 am

Well I fucking relapsed on booze again. I did manage to not let it get too far before I caught myself. It was the same shit as it always was. Had fun for about 5% maybe of the duration. The rest was spent burned out or blacked out.
I've spent all Sunday and yesterday in my bead letting my body recover, I finally got some sleep which was nice. Some pretty fucked up dreams too, but that's to be expected. I had the same reoccurring high school dream though too. The one where everyone picking on me and trying to beat me up and shit. Needless to say, I woke up covered in sweat and dehydrated with just the worst thoughts running through my head. I don't miss that feeling at all.

Same old shit as it always was. I don't miss it.

Even when I was not drinking, I still wasn't happy. Things were more manageable but I still wasn't happy. There were less people around then ever and never anyone around when I needed someone to talk to. It's pretty frustrating knowing that, not like anybody owes me anything but I figure, if I've been listening to others problems for all these years and I'm just straight up ignored when I need someone to talk to.

Isolation.

Wed, Jun. 6th, 2012, 11:16 pm

Was such a nice day out. I didn't do much though unfortunately, took a walk in the afternoon, I was going to go up to the 7-11 and grab me a slurpee but I was walking by the high school right when they we're all getting out, was like fuck dodging all the little kids ahaha, I went up to the corner store instead. I picked up a 6 pack of Non-Alcoholc beer, never had it before and I had a few extra bucks in my pocket plus it was just one of those days where a cold one just sounded good. I tried one out, not too bad for what it's worth. Not something I'd go out of my way and buy. Just had to try it for the sake. Best part is that there's no skunky aftertaste which I do kind of miss in a way, but eh I'm over it.

Anyway, not a whole lot else going on, a bunch of the same old shit. Fun, fun.

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